The word homeostasis was recently used to describe the living scene here at my new house by Tommy. It took a while but the family has seemed to adjusted well to the new normal, though I know there will still be hiccups along the way.
"While it's happening it seems as if things will never get better...but they always do." - Coach Lou
Tommy had to endure things over the past 3+ years that no child should have to endure. There are wounds, there are scars, there is grieving; but there is also forgiveness and healing with time.
For me and my son...my beloved Thomas Andrew...we have found a new understanding and stability. He is still the arrogant, smart, funny, athletic, always wanting perfection, overachieving golden boy. I had lost the loving boy that I held so dear for so long. I missed him so much but now he is back. We have a changed relationship, one that I pray will grow and thrive for many years. I am happy that he has a wonderful girlfriend, a loving and strong bond with his brother and sister, and a good relationship with his father. For he and I, there will continue to be highs and lows but for right now I am going to be thankful for what we have most recently found...Homeostasis
For Tommy - I love you honey - and I know you read this blog sometimes to remember the good old days so I hope this post isn't shocking or upsetting to you. I am thankful for every today I am given and every yesterday that I have known even though so some were so, so painful... So to steal from Oasis' his song from 1995..."don't look back in anger...at least not today." :)