Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Healing

Autumn Rose arrived around 10:30 this morning. Everything about this whole experience has been positive. I had so many fears and anxieties that have now been eased. I am so relieved that it's over and everything was so much easier than expected. We got to hold her and took many pictures. We just said our goodbye's about 10 minutes ago. She was just tiny tiny tiny. She looked very rough but if you could look past the hydrops and the hygroma she had all her features. We are thinking she had Joe's nose and my hands and feet. Again you would be amazed at how small she was. She could fit in the palm of my hand. Joe is doing ok and was an amazing support person through all of this. I couldn't ask for a better husband. He is down eating lunch, I know this has been hard on him.

They are talking about letting me come home tonight. Again I can't believe how easy it was. I'll probably share her birth story soon but for now I'm just going to relax and try to get some sleep. She was due 5 months from today. Thanks again for all the love and prayers. Talk to you soon.

8 comments:

Lizzie Shepherd said...

We're in Utah and I got your blog site from the TS yahoo group you joined recently. We learned of your induction last night and have talked about you all day and have been praying for you and your family. You're so brave and I'm so sorry you've had to do this. You're a true hero for your daughter. -- You are not alone. -- Lizzie, in UT

Prairie Dawn said...

Lizzie - Thank you for the response. I really appreciate it. I think I found you ladies just at the right time. I've had some wonderful email correspondence with another lady from the board and it really helped prepare me for what to expect. Thank you for the thoughts and prayers.

Kelly said...

Dawn, I haven't checked any boards in a couple of days, but I had a feeling I needed to check in tonight. I am so glad I did. I am so so so sorry. But I am also so so happy that you had it easy as far as delivery. I am happy that you found the strength to hold her and be with her and take pics of her. It sounds like you are doing so much better than is to be expected, but don't hold yourself to that everyday. Make sure you let it all out when you need to. I am here if you need to talk or anything.
Kelly

Erin&Dogs said...

Hi Dawn,
I sent you an email this afternoon...and then saw your post. I am sorry for your loss, but I know you are strong like we talked! You are a good woman...keep your chin up like we talked on email!
Hugs,
erin

Debbie said...

Thinking of you Dawn! You have amazing strengh!

The Duncans said...

Dawn- You are AMAZING! You are one of the strongest women I 'know'. You strength and positive attitude are incredible. Autumn Rose is now cuddling with our Lord. She is at peace and is very happy. But, you know this. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Hugs & Prayers!

buggirlmom said...

Dawn- I have been praying for you since we talked on bbc-- you are an amazing soul who has taught me so much in the short time. I am sorry that Autumn Rose didn't stay on earth, but she is a great asset to Heaven! What a beautiful tribute to her. I will continue to pray for strength as the "healing" bgins. Love, Amy Hartling

Prairie Dawn said...

Thank you so much girls! I gain my strength from being around such positive people. It's very strange the way the Lord works, I know he sent all you in my direction to help me get through this. I'm forever grateful for all of you.